Monday, January 25, 2010

And I will try, to fix you.

From Phy, Chem, Bio, Maths to Law, Econs, Sociology, Maths.

Even though I've already made my decision. It still doesn't feel right. But I know that if I stayed in Sciences, it still wouldn't feel right. Nothing would please me. And I'm sick of the thinking. Why do I have to decide my future NOW. Why do most people already know what they want to do with their lives except me. I don't see myself working as anything. Maybe I just shouldn't work, marry a rich husband and just takecare of my 2 adorable kids.

& I got my O level results back today.

1A*(Physics), 3A (Bio, Eng, Maths), 3B (Business, Chem, Addmaths).

Yeah, I guess I should be happy. I mean, atleast it's decent enough to post it on the blog right? But, my goal was to get 5A's, 2B's atleast. Got a B for business, dammit. But don't worry, I'm okay. Like I keep telling everyone, you got straight A's or 5 C's, you still get to be in college, so really, it doesn't matter.

And I should be really proud actually. EVERYONE has tuition except me (if you don't then sorry, and you should be proud like me then). And my grades are slightly similar or even better than those with tuition. I wouldn't say that I was as hardworking as the rest during the whole 2years and exam period and I have to admit, I went out ALOT. And I didn't even pay attention AT ALL for Addmaths during Form5. I just couldn't understand what he was saying so I just slacked and slept in Addmaths. No tuition teacher as well obviously. Just asking my friends and doing it myself. And I got a B. Quite remarkable I think. Yeap, I feel better already! (:

&, the video on fb posted by Rekha was just too beautiful. I just had to post the lyrics up.

Fix you by Coldplay.
When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse.

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

And high up above earth or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Tears stream, down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face and I...

Tears stream, down your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down your face and I...

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you.

I hope you would find out in time, before it's too late... how much I really did love you.

Thursday, January 14, 2010

College :D

Today was the thrid day of college. So far so good actually (:

But my timetable is abit sad, only one hour break. But thankgod wed and thurs college finishes at 3pm while mon and tues is 4pm, fri is 1pm ofcourse. Everyday class starts at 8am.

And OHSHIT I was 40mins late for my first class this morning, Physics.
Me: I'm so sorry! So so sorry!
Miss: It's okay, were you the one that raised her hand yesterday?
Me: Haha, yeahh.
Miss: Next time wake up earlier okay?

Yesterday she asked who has a problem with punctuality and so I raised my hand. Never thought that I would be late, and THAT late, the very next day ><

So far have been going to AC after college, foos is love (:
And yayy, there was this talk instead of class so me and Zhi Lynn skipped, so we were out of college at 2pm instead of 3pm. Thought her how to foos ((:

Oh and how was my orientation and 2nd day? As usual la, ice breaker games and intros on the first day, second day MORE intros and meeting the teachers. Today, lessons finally started and so far so good, FOR NOW!

I need to go to the bookshop to buy my college stuff T___T

And WHERE THE HECK IS MY L. ZZZZ,

But OHEMGEE, I was walking back home in the rain yesterday, and I found RM10 on the road, sweeeet!



babyyyy, I'll make you breakfast in the morning okay? Hope you like cereal :D

Friday, January 8, 2010

For once I will upload pics and not blog about my outings (:

I MISS STUDYING, AND I CAN'T WAIT TO BE A DORK WITH MY NEW GLASSES that I forgot to mention on the blog (:

Meet Garbagemond, I love him (:

Figured out yesterday how to transfer pics from my phone so yeah, from long ago.

Haihhh, I want my new study table that I've been trying to get by making a trip to Ikano but its kinda hard since I have to WAIT for my driving instructor to process the L then ONLY from there wait ONE whole month till I can do my test to get my license so now there is no point to do my 3rd lesson now since I have oh so much time and I might just forget everything.

The cupcakes that Qiqi baked for me, delicious.

Saturday, January 2, 2010

Missing someone and can't wait to see that someone (:

Wow, things have been... crazily hectic. How do I even begin this recap?


Happy New Year and goodbye 2009 and HELLO 2010.

Gosh, 2009.. alot of things happened in this year. Things really changed for me in 2009. I was always thinking, what exactly was I doing a year ago. Shit, things were really different for me (:
2009 was really freaking memorable, and I have no regrets! Hoping for 2010 to somehow be an even better year. And how can it not? Cause baby, its college year for us!

Yes, its done. I am a registered student of Taylor's University College. My dream college! Yeah, my mom laughed when I told her that but seriously, since I was a little girl in primary school, I would always envy those people in their non-uniforms walking to college with their friends and laughing, looking as if they have not a care in the world. How time really flies, I seriously thought I would never get this far in life, but here I am. Alive and well and happy and in great company. Yeah global warming got worst, more people are going mentally sick in the head and are finding new ways to kill people, the economy is sucking ass, little kids are starving while more stupid celebrities are spending frivolously on stupid things they don't even need, technology is growing so fast that it is possible for robots to actually take over the world and face it the world is dying pretty soon, give or take a few decades. But yeah, you always gotta look at the brighter side of things (:

A-Levels: Maths, Bio, Physics, Chem = DEATH

Yeappp, thaaat's me! The idiot that took these subs in A levels even though she doesn't have the ambition to be a doctor but just took it because she doesn't know what else to take. I have two weeks to make up my mind about staying in these subs or changing it if not Taylor's won't give my money back =.=

And wow, I just realised. I'm SUPPOSED to be reporting for duty now but nope! Officially deferred from National Service (:

Ohyeah! Thailand was SHOPPING HEAVEN. I have conquered the whole Platinum shopping mall and the streets of Pataya ( I think that's what it's called). Nope, no tourism sites and drinking snake blood wine in the morning! Maybe next time with the friends, but the lack of shopping here in KL because everything is just too exp really called for the shopping I did in Thailand. Pleaseeee let it be a yearly thing for I would love to do all my shopping in Thailand !!

What else have I been up to... It's kinda hard to blog about what happened a month ago ><

MY BIRTHDAY! OMG YEAHHH !! So, it WAS NOT a party okay? I didn't throw a party because I was not in the mood to have a bazillion people in the house, and this group of people wouldn't know this group of people and then I would have to worry about food and drinks so NO I didn't throw a party but I did have a gathering. I invited 3 groups of friends whom knew a few people from another group and could mix around and stay out late at night and drink and it was pot luck, everyone had to bring something to my house.

Everyone came on Dec 6 and we talked, laughed, drink, sang and I got my birthday song and birthday cake at 12am. I was too over-joyed for words, friends gathering to sing you your birthday song, and all the birthday wishes on sms and facebook and the ones that tried to call me at 12am to wish me. THANK YOU EVERYONE. I love birthdays !

And thanks to Richmond, for buying me my birthday cake, and for attempting to surprise me with it, sorry I opened the fridge. But I already suspected you got me a cake so don't feel too bad! And thanks to Nelson, Terence and Anir for making pizza but I so-called ruin it but hey, pizza that taste like pan mee, not a bad job I say! And thanks for the cake Nelson baked(which tasted like there was an orgasm in my mouth YUMMY), thanks man for actually baking for me!!!! And for the DELICIOUS belgian choc that Terence got for me that says happy birthday! I finally ate al of it on Xmas day hehe! And thanks to Nadine and Safia for the PRETTY, big box, inside with a photoframe of the three of us at graduation (T____T) and a cute top from kitschen. Thanks to Reuben, Zhiji and Siew Lee for getting us MATCHING anklets (mine's purple!), what a sweet thought ! Till now all of us are wearing it. And thanks to Villi for the cute bear phone strap which my mom wanted for herself but don't worry! I said no (: And thanks to Zhi Lynn for the effing nice bracelet which is not really a bracelet. I love it! And for handmaking the package thingy hahaha. Did I forget anyone else? If I have I'm sorry, you know my memory sucks. Yeah, I know I didn't get much presents this year but REALLY, I wasn't even expecting any! I kinda forgot presents came with birthdays so it was nice to get this many actually. And that they weren't just store-bought and chosen without care, but these people actually took the time and gave it thought into giving these to me. I would choose a gift you took 100minutes to complete rather than a gift that cost rm100. It really is the thought that counts and I'm not just saying it.

So everyone went back home except for Danial, Anir and Terence who were sleeping over. Went to Canai Cafe and the shisha was about to close but told the shisha guy it was my birthday and I got my shisha and maggi mee goreng yayy! And instead of sleeping, Terence and me stayed up talking for 3 hours and like we told Anir in the morning, no we didn't think it was a heart to heart talk cause that would involve our problems and ambitions and shit so nope it wasnt :D So he had to leave at 10am, so I finally took my short nap then Azaidi came so the three of us went to watch Ninja Assasin in Summit, back to the house to drink and talk, went to Canai to eat, talked more in the car outside and they dropped me home. Then, ermm.. I played in the rain abit and took the time to sit back, watch and hear the rain. Then I made sure to finish listen to Empty Apartment and Only One by Yellowcard, Here (in your arms) by Hellogoodbye, The Reason by Hoobastank and Bitter Heart by Zee Avi before taking off my dirty wet clothes and taking a nice warm shower (:

Next day ofcourse, was Fong Zhi Lynn's birthday !! Met up in Pyramid and I surprised her from the back when she was coming out of the cinema, screamed Happy birthday at the top of my lungs, was so surprised till she fell on the floor and I was standing there laughing my ass off.. infront of everyone (: We drank those huge ice milk tea things they have for people celebrating their birthdays and sad to say, we didn't finish it ><

Hmm then there was Ashwin's surprise birthday at Chili's in Bangsar Shopping Centre. I got there late cause the night before went to Genting with Villi, Zhiji, Reuben and Siew Lee at 4am and how was I to know I would sleep for that long and that my mom would then be unable to send me last minute ): So I rushed like superwoman and took a cab down to Bangsar. Had JUST missed them yell surprise but atleast I wasn't as late as I thought I was ><>

And I went to Langkawi!! With Zhiji, Siew Lee and Reuben. My butt has recovered from sitting on the bus for 7 hours back and forth, don't forget the jetty ride! But it was worth it. The hotel was beautiful for what we paid, really wasn't expecting that! And the beach at night, with the stars, uncountable stars zomfghexwtfbbqsosssss. BEE-U-TI-FUL. Listened to my ipod laying down on the matt with good company next to you staring at the stars. AGAIN I say! Soon, with Rekha and the gang in late january! ;D Gosh I really would love to go to Langkawi again. Ooohh, I took a nap by the beach.. and when I woke up, it felt as if I woke up in a dream, with the beautiful scenery and the sun almost setting, and the three of them across from me talking to themselves and the wind and sand in my hair. Yeah, it's nice to take a nap at the beach. And the choc and drinks there.. Yeah Siew Lee has her chocs and I have my drinks... cheap cheap drinks !!!

Hmm what else? OhYEA. PROM !!!!!!!!!!!!

"when i first saw her, i thought i'd seen an angel, my eyes were so blinded, i couldn't look straight. "

My prom date was Richmond ((: According to Nadine, he looked like a chrysanthemum flower that night but what the eff, I wouldn't ask anyone else to be my date (: And everything I wore that night was from Thailand other than the flower pin Siew Lee borrowed me, thanks! I was all white, with a tan from Langkawi. Prom was awesome, I really had alot of fun. The MC's were funny as hell and I danced non-stop as soon as the dance floor opened! And me and Mabel gave a lap dance to Terence and Anir infront of everyone! Don't worry, we received lap dances too hahahaa! I got to slow dance with Richmond too :D I HAD FUN AT MY PROM WEEEEE!! Love my friends, love life yeah !

Played foos and chilled at the bar in Renaissance Hotel for awhile which was where the prom was held, and the rest couldn't make it so me, Nadine, Nelson, Anir, Terence, Suhail and Faris went to put our stuff at Sheraton Hotel (thanks Nel!) and off to Heritage Row which was right beside Sheraton! Went to Maison, drink what was left of the bottle as everyone was already kong or half kong cause they left prom arnd 11pm while we reached at 1.30am, danced till 3am, ate at the mamak with everyone then went back to the hotel where it was another session of talking with Terence, though this time I got a full body massage :D Everyone was missing for awhile but they came back then talked till 7am I think? Slept till the idiots woke me up at an ungodly hour of 10am, no idea why -.- Showered, breakfast at mamak and took the LRT and KTM back. SOOO motivated to get my license FAST! Thankgod the Undang place called my mom saying there was an opening to do the Undang, so went back home and PASSED my undang!! YEAHH!! The first two times in English fail, but the third time took it in BM and I passed!

Already did my second seminar, and already took my first driving lesson! I am LUCKY to have my driving instructor, cause he's a really cool guy! I see everyone hating theirs and because of that they feel nervous driving so its nice to have a guy I can talk to and he doesn't scold me but teach me when I make mistakes. Shit, when he was outside my house, he already wanted me to be in the drivers seat but I told him that can he atleast get out of my neighbourhood cause there was this pretty narrow turning at the longkang's that I didn't want to drive at but he told me not to worry and just do it. He was directing me here and there and I didn't even realise but before I knew it, I was driving on the Federal Highway!!!! Ohmygodddd. He didn't even give me any warning =.= So I drove to Kelana Jaya and did the 3 point turns and all and then he drove me back. Can't wait for my next lesson :D

OHYEAH! Christmas!! Christmas eve was at MOS with Wai Keat, Azaidi, Mutalib, Akram, Zhiji, Reuben and Siew Lee. I had a great time :D Christmas day with Si Ching and Hendrich at Rack's, dinner with mom and bro at TGIF's in Parade and at night the boys picked me up and went to AC to foos again, and Serena picked me up to go to G6 in Gardens. Nice place to drink and chill, then dance with your friends cause the music is awesome.

OHH and New Years!! New years eve was at Al's in Heritage Row with Qiqi, Azaidi and Mutalib. The night before at Mist to get some free drinks then at Space with Azaidi, Zhiji, Reuben, Siew Lee, Anir and Nadine. And finally got to see daddy Timothy on New year! Thanks for letting your two daughters crash at your house for awhile. OWH And Richmond called me at 12am on the dot all the way from Hong Kong! <3

Hmm what else has been up? Oh Jan 1 was spent eating pizza and watching Planet 51 at Siew Lee's :D Other than the normal hangouts like watching movies, foos and pool at Rack's and AC, coming over to my house and yum cha sessions and sleepovers and such guess that's it.

Or maybe I'm forgetting something? :S

Ohmygod this post took 2hours++ to complete, and I'm busy discussing tonight's plans!
Ciaoo!


I'll pile up the dreams that I thought could not be fulfilled without throwing them away,
and become the foundation stone for the dreams that stands at the peak of absurd and reckless.
Grab on to my hand, would you like to see it together?
By no means its easy, but its the best kind of world.

Happy new year! (:
Notice the whole post consists of (: ? Well, maybe cause those memories make me (:
(: