Monday, January 25, 2010

And I will try, to fix you.

From Phy, Chem, Bio, Maths to Law, Econs, Sociology, Maths.

Even though I've already made my decision. It still doesn't feel right. But I know that if I stayed in Sciences, it still wouldn't feel right. Nothing would please me. And I'm sick of the thinking. Why do I have to decide my future NOW. Why do most people already know what they want to do with their lives except me. I don't see myself working as anything. Maybe I just shouldn't work, marry a rich husband and just takecare of my 2 adorable kids.

& I got my O level results back today.

1A*(Physics), 3A (Bio, Eng, Maths), 3B (Business, Chem, Addmaths).

Yeah, I guess I should be happy. I mean, atleast it's decent enough to post it on the blog right? But, my goal was to get 5A's, 2B's atleast. Got a B for business, dammit. But don't worry, I'm okay. Like I keep telling everyone, you got straight A's or 5 C's, you still get to be in college, so really, it doesn't matter.

And I should be really proud actually. EVERYONE has tuition except me (if you don't then sorry, and you should be proud like me then). And my grades are slightly similar or even better than those with tuition. I wouldn't say that I was as hardworking as the rest during the whole 2years and exam period and I have to admit, I went out ALOT. And I didn't even pay attention AT ALL for Addmaths during Form5. I just couldn't understand what he was saying so I just slacked and slept in Addmaths. No tuition teacher as well obviously. Just asking my friends and doing it myself. And I got a B. Quite remarkable I think. Yeap, I feel better already! (:

&, the video on fb posted by Rekha was just too beautiful. I just had to post the lyrics up.

Fix you by Coldplay.
When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse.

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

And high up above earth or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Tears stream, down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face and I...

Tears stream, down your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down your face and I...

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you.

I hope you would find out in time, before it's too late... how much I really did love you.

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